If You Believe, They Put a Man on the Moon...
Yesterday Evan and I went running out to the Country Club parking lot behind our home to look for the space shuttle, Discovery. He had is doggy and my hand and I was hurrying him so much that he fell and scraped his knee :(. He's so tough, though...he whined a bit and then kept running with me so he wouldn't miss it. He was so excited when the puffy pink trail shot across the sky, that he almost acted embarrassed and turned away. He grinned and answered excitedly that yes, he saw it. Then we went up and watched on tv and he talked about it all day, even called daddy at work to tell him.
I'd seen the shuttle from the 8th Street Elementary playground in Ocala years ago, but I remember it being so much smaller. I guess since we're now that much closer to Cape Canaveral, it was that much bigger, and I think I was nearly as impressed and awed as Evan. To think we were watching people shoot into space with our own two eyes...(or four eyes, I guess!) Pretty amazing. And to watch on tv as the final booster released, the camera on it showing the belly of the shuttle as it fell away from it; wow. We hope to actually visit Cape Canaveral for one of the launches sometime in the near future.
Okay, so now I'm going to jump (space)ships here, because as hard as the concept of reaching space is to grasp, here's something harder, something I feel like God placed on my heart this morning...
I was reading about how He's been with us through our trials, experienced every betrayal we've experienced, (even premeditative betrayal by Judas,) and has been tested and tempted in every way we have, so He can empathize with us and give us strength to conquer...then I realized how much my honest tendency is to revert to saying, "yeah, but You're God. You're so much more capable than me!!"
But when I resorted to the usual "You're God and I'm me" this morning, I felt him lay this question my heart:
"And so how much love are you capable of, Katie?"
(Shrug.) Not sure.
"And how much love am I capable of? What does my love look like in comparison to yours?"
"Father, I'm completely handicapped in comparison to the way You love. Your love is immeasurable!"
"Then how much more do I suffer?"
Hmmm...Now I don't know, maybe this isn't a revelation to you, but it's been huge for me this morning, and to Him be the glory. May He teach me His patience today. How good He is that every day is a new start!
