Monday, May 26, 2008

Four Worms, Three Kids, and a Millipede.

Today we decided to tackle the yard before we were reprimanded by the homeowner's association.  Again.  (Yes, again!  Lest you forget the resodding.)  My hands now hurt, my feet hurt, and even my nail beds hurt- and here is why.  We have this weed in our mulch beds that has taken over the bed, the other plants, the yard... the house... our lives!  Okay, maybe that's a tad dramatic.  But it did take over my day.

It looks like a tall version of St. Augustine grass.  I have no idea what it's called but I hate it.  The root system winds and winds about a foot underground and you cannot pull the things up without digging.  They are so tough they're hard to break with a shovel.  I was doing acrobatics- press-handstands and all kinds of tricks to use the entire weight of my body as leverage and still, they were mean suckers.  After a few hours of jumping on a shovel, your feet start to complain.  I wish I'd taken before and after pictures.  I think that might make it rewarding somehow. 

We started at around 9:30 this morning with the kids out in the front with us.  They took the first worm I came across under their well-intended but oh-so-rough wings and named him Dirty Earth Worm.  Very original of them.

Jack was delighted.  Apparently he doesn't remember ever seeing an earthworm before even though I found one in his diaper when he was about 8 months old.  He was downright giddy while it crawled around at his feet, and very, very mad when Evan and Madalyn picked it up, thinking they might walk out of sight with it.  I wish you could see the way Madalyn not only holds a worm, but coddles and coos at it like it's the most beautiful human baby you've ever seen.  She said that very word, actually, because I remember laughing aloud.  She said, "Aww, hello-o. You're so beautiful."

When he died, I tried to tell them so, but they were in denial.  "No, he's sleeping.  No, he's just sleeping, mommy." Don't be morbid. 

"Okay.  Whatever you say," I shrugged.

"Oh... you're right.  I think he's dead."  (Evan came to terms.)

But Dirty Earthworm wasn't much missed because soon Evan found an unfortunate millipede he named Margil. They put it Margil in an empty sidewalk chalk container and made a bridge of mulch and fed it weeds and showered it with water.  Margil went fetal early on in the care-taking merriment, curled himself into a tight little ring, and I think that may be how he was when he breathed his last breath.  (Well, you know- through his skin, or whatever bugs do.) 

Then we breaked for lunch and put the kids down for a quiet time and went back to work.  I found a plant bed particularly ripe in earthworms and saved a big daddy and a mommy and a tiny baby for the kids when they came back out.  I told Shaun they were going to be so happy with me and it made that shovel feel just a bit lighter.

Hours passed.  Hours of grunting and whining and wiping dirt and sweat from our brows.  Then the kids came out. 

"I found you some worms!" I told them excitedly and went back to my groaning and digging because they knew where the container was.

A few seconds later I heard Evan's voice behind me, "mommy, what did you do to these worms?"

I turned around to where he had his hand extended with three stiff worms- (oh and by stiff I mean like concrete)- and I cocked my head, confused.  I glanced over at the bucket sitting in the full sun. 

"Did you fry them?"  Shaun asked.

"I guess I did.  I didn't know that could happen.  Sorry Evan," I said.

Apparently there's a reason the worms live deep in the moist and cool soil.  Who'd of thunk?

He wasn't that upset.  He's used to mommy's unfortunate mishaps.  Besides, I put him to work with Madalyn, having them hold a garbage bag open and close their eyes while I filled it with weeds and roots. 

It is sooooo nice when they are old enough to help with little things like that.  The weed killer and mulching went fast after that and when I pulled my gloves off there were very defined dirt lines where my hands had been in the gloves and where my arms had been out.  So naturally, we decided to put all that dirt in the pool and go for a swim. 

Jack has gone through some phases with the pool.  He was too oblivious to the danger for a while and if he fell in he went completely stiff until you retrieved him, which is a very unsettling site.  And then still, no fear.  Right back at it.  Then he went through a phase of being overly fearful.  Now he is past that and we are practicing swimming to the steps.  Once he's back out he shouts, "Weet!  Weet!" which translates to wait- because he wants to come back in the water with you and thinks you might turn your back on him to throw a kid or retrieve a toy for someone else.

Gosh, I am realizing I'm really writing with nothing in mind.  I just miss recording the special little moments.  I've been so busy with work. 

We also have something big going on right now that I hope to share more about in the near future.  I'm sure I will, but it's still too early.  Anyway, I look forward to being here more this summer.  I took some home videos yesterday and so I will be bombarding you soon with home videos and pictures from the past year and stories and memories and things you already have in abundance yourselves.  So fasten your seatbelts, it's about to get wild in here.  (That was sarcasm.)  But writing here does make me appreciate the details of life more.  Do any of you who blog find that to be true?  Slowing down makes me realize how much I want what I've got.  And that's the said secret to contentment, right?  Wanting what you've got? 

Happy Memorial Day! 

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Steven Curtis Chapman

A heartbreaking story out of Nashville, TN today:

MARIA SUE CHAPMAN, DAUGHTER OF STEVEN CURTIS CHAPMAN, DIES IN ACCIDENT AT FAMILY HOME

NASHVILLE, TN...5/21/08... At approximately 5pm on the afternoon of Wednesday May 21st, Maria Sue Chapman, 5 years old and the youngest daughter to Steven and Mary Beth Chapman was struck in the driveway of the Chapman home in Franklin, TN. Maria was rushed to Vanderbilt Childrens Hospital in Nashville, transported by LifeFlight, but died of her injuries there. Maria is one of the close knit family’s six children and one of their three adopted daughters.

More than five years ago, Chapman and his wife MaryBeth founded The Shaohannah’s Hope Ministry after bringing their first adopted daughter, Shaohannah, home from China. The ministry’s goal is to help families reduce the financial barrier of adoption, and has provided grants to over 1700 families wishing to adopt orphans from around the world. Chapman is a five-time GRAMMY ® winner and 54-time Dove Award winning artist who has sold over 10 million albums and garnered 44 No. 1 singles.

The saddest part is that Steven's son accidentally backed his car into her while she was playing on the driveway.  Here's a video the family released shortly thereafter:

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Makin' Mudpies

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My brother's cowboy boots from when he was little.  (These are all older... I don't have time to be current, HA!)

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Before the big boy haircut.  I think we're going long again. I miss this hair! xoxo

Friday, May 16, 2008

Playing Catch-up

I am behind posting pictures here for about 7 shoots, so here are an assortment from 5 of them to catch up a little... and there are A LOT more on the photography blog. :)

 

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Just a Shout Out to My Peeps

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This is just a random post with no organized thought whatsoever... 

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This is Jack stuck on the tree fort.              This is Jack trying to put on Evan's soccer sock.

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This is Jack being Jack; covered with dirt and scratches and spit.  Because he's a boy.

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Speaking of boys, here they are; just chillin'.

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Gotta love those sweet hands.  And I don't even make them do that!

I have so many pictures of E and M that make me smile from this day that I will have to save them for another post...

I can't wait till my Summer break, when I plan to edit, edit, edit my OWN pictures and post away!!  Shaun's been working on a new blog face for awhile now and he should be ready to switch it over in the next day or so.   Granted, the picture is from last summer and so a bit outdated now, but we'll just stay a year behind and no big deal, right?  Right.  Anything's better than staring at this pea green background any longer. 

(It's okay, you don't have to comment and say you liked it, we're on the same page.)  Pun intended.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

House Guest

A few weeks ago we got a letter from Shaun's little sister, Molly.  Or Evan, Madalyn and Jack's Aunt, Molly... or my sister-in-law, Molly... (however you want to put it):

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The reason we were delayed in recording and returning our activity list with Stanley was that he had jet lag and preferred to nap for the few days first.  We were NOT neglecting him in any way shape or form.  He did not, I repeat- DID NOT- spend an entire week on the ottoman on Shaun's side of the bed, buried under a tall stack of junk mail. Certainly not.  We would never treat our guests that way, (just in case you were wondering if we leave our guests under tall piles of junk mail because that's a perfectly normal thing to wonder about people like us.)

Anyway, after he caught up on rest we did these things:

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Chilled in the pool.

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(She wasn't exaggerating the flat part.)

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Cooked with dirt and worms.

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Ate lots of starches and yellow foods.

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And had a makeover.

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I think he particularly loved the Strawberry Shortcake Body Glitter.  (I know this because he sighed in ecstasy.)

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(P.S. Sorry about the broken/dislocated/bent arm, Stanley.  Jack couldn't resist folding you.  You're very foldable, as flat as you are and everything.  I'm sure you understand.  And at least your nails look good.)            

Sunday, May 04, 2008

My Savior Loves

 

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this song.  This is a song God has used to speak to me numerous times over the past year or so.  (Plus, Aaron Shust who sings/wrote it looks like he could be cast as any male Bible character you might name.) 

It's been a season of sifting for me.  I was in need of some serious discipline for the sake of being strengthened.  When I went to the Beth Moore conference three things really stood out to me:

1) Christianity is not for wimps.  We can't be convinced we're wimps!

2) It's suppose to be a chase.  The Lord leads, we follow and He calls, "come on, come on, keep running" and every now and then He turns around and we run smack into His chest!  But it would be a mistake to think we can stay there like that and go fetal on Him- soon it's back to running because...

3)  We were apprehended by Him because He has things/people/hearts specifically placed in our path for us to apprehend for Him.

Phew.

So back to the discipline.  I felt oppressed by the enemy, (with a tiny little e because that's how small he is in comparison to our God,) for the sake of discipline.  The Lord clearly wants to weed out some doubt that much needed weeding.  And I welcome the Lord's discipline- I don't enjoy it, but I choose to welcome it. 

I was thinking about that this morning- how you know when you're acting spoiled as a kid, when you're in need of some discipline.  And I was thinking of all the good, good things the Lord has given me and done for me and how spoiled and forgetful and ungrateful I can live... 'Lord, why do you spoil me,' I thought.  Then I realized He does and He doesn't. 

He lavishes me with love and good things, but He certainly disciplines me as well- what else has He been doing this season of doubt and questions??  

And when I get to the bottom of the barrel of questions and things I can't understand these lyrics are always where I land.  It's almost as if I'll drive here or there and think and think and then on cue, when I'm at rock bottom, He plays this over the radio for me:

I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands One who is my Savior

My Savior. Picture Mel Gibson dying in Braveheart to fight for freedom.  Then make Him Christ.  Then make yourself the girl (or guy) He's dying for...  wait, I guess you could picture him in The Passion of the Christ and that might make more sense... I'm real smart and inna-lectu-wall like that.  (And this is getting complicated, let's move on...)

I often find myself using repetition to get things to sink into the thick skulls that are my children's.  (And I say that with love, of course,) as the Lord works much the same with me, using repetition as a crow bar to pry open my thick skull.  He has repeated to me for months that I am not skilled to understand, but that He died for me and so how could He ever be anything but just and merciful and compassionate, not to mention passionate?  This world is not the happy ending, HELLO, Katie... the cross was the climax in the story but! we haven't reached the resolution this side of Heaven-  it's still to come, hallelujah!  (And hard to believe.) 

Still, the words wouldn't stay in my brain!  It was like they were written in washable marker and the first tragic thing I heard would wash it right away... till a week ago, when my pastor was talking about Jesus healing a blind man and how the only thing the Pharisees were worried about was not the desperate, hurting blind man, but their own theologies and theories. They asked, "Who sinned that this man is blind, him or his parents?"  And that really struck a chord with me, convicted me.  I saw myself in them:  Forget the baby who I just heard about on the radio, who was stolen from the hospital, (who You will return safely to his parents in less than thirty minutes,) forget any prayer I might pray over him- what I want to know is what these parents did to deserve this panic and how can I trust You when You let these things happen?  

Then our pastor quoted Spurgeon and that was like the seal on the letter: I would rather have one ounce of help than one pound of theory.

It was as if the Lord Himself said it to me, would you not rather have an ounce of my compassion and help than an entire TON of understanding, Katie?  Would you rather offer people your theories or your help in the name of Love?  And my heart cried out, "yes, Lord! Yes!!  Let me surrender the understanding, tell me where I can help carry Your love in this broken place!" 

That was the missing piece in my wrestle all these months, I think.  All my, oh, I'm such a saint because I am so burdened for these hurting people, and why are You so long suffering, Lord moments were really about me and my trust issues- not the hurting people I knew.  I mean, maybe it started as being about the girl in the headline, but then it became personal, festered, and turned to doubt. 

Certainly it's okay to ask the Lord why.  To be saddened and burdened for the things that burden Him.  But when it turns into this need to understand, it's time to surrender. 

Lord, let this last week's thoughts be the permanent marker I need so that we can leave this season behind. I know only You say when we can leave it, not me, and I thank You for it.  Thank You, Jesus- hallelujah and Amen to all You are, and to Your patience with a sinner like me!     

Aaron Shust's website quotes him as saying, “God reveals His existence and divinity so much that we have no excuse for not believing in Him. He whispers in the wind and shouts in the waves that He loves us and hears us.” 

AMEN?!

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These two pictures (above and below) are two of those that I have a feeling I will appreciate much more than any parent or anyone else.  I just love the mood of them.  I love her hair blowing just over her eye and the expression on her face and the way she's barely touching the flower.  I love the way she wrings her dress below.  So natural.  Isn't she a beautiful child?  Both of these sisters are.

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Friday, May 02, 2008

Feeding the Addiction

Jack loves trains.  This you know.  We always stopped by Barnes and Noble to let him play at the table there.  When his 2nd birthday was approaching, (which is July 3rd- so still approaching-) we knew we would want to get a train table since it's so difficult to think of new toy ideas for subsequent children.

Last time I was at B&N, I mentioned this to another mom and she said she knew someone selling their table... so this morning I went and got it.  Then we went to Toys R US and spent just as much purchasing some trains as we did on the table.  (Not to mention, it cost me NINETY DOLLARS to fill up my car this morning.)

Shaun laughs because another father joked to him about the whole Thomas thing being cult-like and it's so true:  "You're a very useful engine, Thomas of Sodor," and weird repetitive chants like that.  And Sir Toppom Hat, what's up with him ...and the whole shebang.  10-20 dollars for a tiny wooden box- that alone attests to the number of Sodor Converts, and, I mean, it's just scary.

Anyway, I picked Ethan and Evan up with the table in the back of the car, and we headed to Ethan's house to trade him out for Madalyn, who was having a play date.  From there, the kids anxiously glanced over the seats at the table till we got home, where they were BOUND AND DETERMINED to help me carry it inside and not wait for daddy to get home to help.  It was a rough ride in- for the table, I mean- but we made it  and dropped here in the foyer for now:

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It was money well spent.  Jack hasn't said one word since. 

No.  No, that's not true.  I heard Madalyn say, "Oh noooo, I'm falling,"  (being a train,) and Jack yelled, "help!  help!" in response.

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The older kids lost interest and are having their quiet times... but Jack plays on... sighing every now and then, as though the excitement of it all has just been too exhausting, but he will carry on if he must...

Happy Birthday, little boy.  We love you.